Never will be the same

 It will never be the same
It has been a decade not around
The ancestors consumed your soul
I was only ten when you vanished
By then my head was empty
Now the pain is hitting me
I know life
I wish you were around
I feel your absence

You left after offering me
I have offered nothing
I remember those times,
When I had liver problems
You stood by my side
You never gave up
Till that day I was free from the monster
Still, you were there
Then you took me to school

When I stepped to school
Second-year you left
Why just show me the way and leave
It will never be the same
Not on your absence
At least if it was possible to adopt a mother
But there is no way
I will never call the name mama again
It will never be the same

You were a true mother
Loving mother
A nurse of those times
Now you have left me lonely
I am a bachelor
Scattered feelings like desert vegetation
You have left a great void
Unfilled vacuity
It will never be the same

I loved you mummy
I love you mummy
I will never put you aside
Even for a thousand years to come
Even after death
I have nothing to do
Without you, I am lost
I am dead
I feel useless

A mother
All care
All love
Love of no conditions
Unconditional love
I cannot put those memories aside
The hours we shared
I just wish you stayed for a day
For me to say good-bye

Never will be the same
I am speechless
These words are nothing,
Not to express how I feel
This brings me to tears
I enjoy nothing
Mother's day I howl
The day you were buried I bawl
That day when people enjoyed
On a new year's day

Mummy, there is nothing much to say
Only to say,
It will never be the same
Not in your absence
I miss you
You are irreplaceable
If it was a girlfriend it was better,
I were going to ask for love again
With you nowhere to take you
Gone forever
Only to say mama; interlude in peace
Rest in peace mama
It will never be the same
Peace
Peace
Peace

Be my valentine

This is a love letter
I do not want to tell of the crevices
 On my soul and skin
All has to be mended
Let me lend you my hand
Stretch my hand to touch
Sing you serenades
Paint you red cards
Plant and harvest you roses
Make you feel the sweet whiff

That has been written and delivered direct to you

Let me be your chocolate as they ravish bars

And hunks of man-made sweets
I propose nature to you
Come closer and nurture me
Patch my fissures
Be my valentine
Be my nurse
Rise me from my torn berth
Grant me potency
Be my valentine

 

FADING

Blue skin
Blue soul
What a foul
So the soul howls
Surfing for something to cling to tenaciously
Or else a flesh will evanesce
Fade and drown into the soil
What a turmoil
I am smiling
I read philosophers
Taught myself pretence
Truly speaking I am bawling
Rolling and wandering here
Browsing for what I possess
May be my palm is void
You are unknown but known
Yes so it is to my flesh
Thoughts and concepts
Trances that prance not
It is too cold
Hold on
Bold your words
Do not me grant and or throw me with swords
Paralysing a Poke
Crushing all its heart 's veins, capillaries and arteries
I am fading
My black colour became royal a colour
Went to sky blue
I won't be white
By then I will be in the air
Blue soul
Blue Poke
Blue inner atom

 

Overtoning

May be I am a fool

But I guess that I am full

I longed for a soul mate

My portion

Just like the tree;

The branches and the leaves

The trunk too

You reside in me

Yet you are my habitat

I adore posting my sight to your eyes

I cherish you

 

It is love when my stomach brims on seeing you

Not when all brims with feral moves

Hungry fleshes

Over-toned relationships

Erotic as they are

Look at them

They lost human portion

They kiss, hiss and ravish one another;

All in the open like donkeys

 

I tell of what the inner atom feels

You bring me joy

Just your existence

I know babes

I do not have to just search and explore you corner to corner

Velvet strokes on your body

Arousing hidden, asleep coal

What happens to the fridge and its contents?

When your sack stretched out

Do you still need more?

 

I cherish you most

Not your cherubic muscles and lips or hips

I see you veiled

I love you veiled

Just strip your heart

That is what I dote most

Sexual overtones are not what I hunted you for

I cherish you

You only

As veiled as you are

 

HEARTFELT

 

Let me scrawl

From the depths of my inner atom

Let me tell in paint what I spat in words

First day, second day and all those days we met

Time when I scrounged

When I knocked at that tough cherishing door with my black knuckles

I but spat sincere words

Words like a mother’s song to a crying baby

 

I just rolled to your direction the depths of my oceans
How sincere
You saw the peaks of my mountains
Mountains void of cols
So I spat all my sincere portions
Assembled my deepest parts of the puzzle in me
Words rolled not to confuse and convince
I could only tell of my riddled being yesterday

This feeling that I feel for your existence
I know God has got his hand over me
You are a superwoman
You have penetrated to the bottoms of my inner atom
Look now
I want none other fruits
My inner atom found its favourite creation
Like the herbs produced by mother earth
You soothe my soul
Natural healing

"Love is a serious mental disease"
So Plato said
I will stay inane for you breathe
Insane for a solo creation
A slave of this mental disease
How the sickness in me pleases my soul
A clean tackle
If It breaks I will heal by a hunk of more love

I sing words like you are precious all days
I sing serenades every day
For the touch of love I learned how to roll the pen
Scribble and craft words to flatter you
Sing you live music every day
Intimate moments
Ultimate existence
You are the lineage of sense
I stay with no pretence
You sparked a meaning into my breath

I but now know eternity
The enemy that sojourned and stayed in me yesterday is no more
I have a new layer on my skin
You cleansed my soul and the fluids springing in me
Just those sincere words for a little endeavour of appreciation

 

A creation like that

Creation like that

I Knocked,

The door opened

Never knew of past scenes;

Times of unison,

As they shared the same pillow;

Graduated from solitude to companionship.

My Inner atom smiled.

 

Before the door opened,

Someone just left;

Before vanishing,

He injected breath into her bloodstream.

As I was in.

He came back

Brawling for reinstatement.

 

She never told me her inns.

She knew not of her inns.

My Nubian queen;

I cherished her more than anything.

But I couldn’t determine circumstances.

As green as she was

She never sneaked out.

 

On his presence she managed to put a paw out.

Life was injected into her.

Passive as she was.

Active as he thought he was, a tyrant;

Never posting sight to the scene.

Now that he spat his trespasses,

She stepped back, away from me

“A child needs a mother and a father.”

I spat as she told me the inns like those.

 

Why did he run away?

What cowardice was he in?

I am petrified

Paralysed for sins not mine.

How do I shine?

No more.

My face is now as dull as soot.

My cheeks are streams.

 

How can a man date for two weeks?

Is this flesh weak?

Am I a freak?

Left to bombard my flesh with questions.

She vanished away like fog.

Broke my inner atom.

Took away my autumn;

My prancing like a calf-

She is no more.

 

Dreams shattered.

Love betrayed.

My life is Zero.

She never meant null to me.

Yet that was her name.

It translates to Setswana “Lefela”

She meant a hunk to me.

 

I miss you next to me.

My breath is now a plight.

You were my flight to joy.

Now I am faced by dull days and nights.

No more beams from your sweet grinning lips.

As my head rises I look next.

I find naught.

The rose is consumed.

I miss you.

 

MEMORIES

 

Wisdom that was granted

The nursing that fell to our palms

The words we shared

Smiles and grinning

Unconditional love

You have disappeared in flesh

In soul still I hold you

Our yesterday’s still linger

 

As we take steps back

Our hearts get heavier

Torn and pierced

A feeling of the loss

Downpour of tears

Torrents that wash us away

We were complete a wall

Now we feel crooked

 

Tea is with sugar

A portion of us has melted away

To those we lost on the battlefield

We miss you

Our hearts are red

Speared by yesterday

The strike rises and suffocates me

We are flowing in a miss

 

Shared memories are a thorn to these hearts

We love you

We keep rising our sight to higher heights

For we shall meet

Construct us an exquisite home

Tears are obstructing our sight

We cannot hold on

Rest in peace till we meet again

Interlude in peace

 

FREE THE WORD

 

Let me scrawl

Do not make me to crawl

Drag myself to that corner

Collect my pen, where you threw it

Make me not to tremble to the microphone

Fear of weapons of mass destruction

Do not petrify me

I want to scribble and spit some words

Words as free as the birds

 

Words of colours

Red, blue, black, white, green and all the rainbow

Words that can curse

My words do not scorn

Red poems as live as live coal

Rods that strikes the rot

I want to yell names

Names like Christopher Columbus, Livingstone, Mackenzie, the so-called queen

I am reddened by yesterday

Those who stole my existence

 

Free the word

Let the word spear

Let the rod poke

The sphere of inspiration stroke

Cherubic and feral strokes

All the circumstances are the inspiration

They are the curator to the pressure and the power

Let the word soften

It be like a lover’s touch traversing the chest of the lover

 

Free the word

Let the word revolve if so it has to

Spin against the immoral routes

Routes inspired by the malicious leaders

Dealers that waters gloom

I n this so-called one home

Practice your norms and customs

Just like faith

Let me not have your muck clung to me

Imposter step back

 

If I paint the sheets

Do not call me names

Let me spit the touches of my inner atom

Do not cage me

Do not game my flesh

Do not grant me a slash

Erase the feelings of consuming my breath

Overlook conspiracy to put me behind the bars

 

Free the word

Word.

 

What I miss

May be you will cry
My intention is not so to do
But my pen is missing its portion
I should be writing in unison to or with someone
May be for someone
May you please listen to this

My page is a stream
The ink is painting all of it
Not adhering to the limits
It is stepping all over and above the lines
A torrent fell from my eyes
Spreading it all over
I wish you will see the words
Oh! May be you will see the tears

I do not know your name
May be I know
My intention is not to write metaphors
Poems like creepers
My inner atom happens to shed
It misses something
This is a flatter
You beautify mother earth
Me too